Lovers & Friends

Lol, I am listening to that song right now. Anyway, I've been looking for a penpal lately. or an email buddy, whatever you call it. I find it interesting to just talk randomly to someone unattached, to everything in my life. Cause it makes things better. I had better go though, I have run out of things to write about lol...

Evanescence

perfect by nature
icons of self indulgence
just what we all need
more lies about a world that
never was and never will be
have you no shame
don't you see me
you know you've got everybody fooled
look here she comes now
bow down and stare in wonder
oh how we love you
no flaws when you're pretending
but now i know she
never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled
without the mask where will you hide
can't find yourself lost in your lie i know the truth now
i know who you are
and i don't love you anymore
it never was and never will be
you're not real and you can't save me
somehow now you're everybody's fool

because I am.

Dare I say it? *looks left, then right* My life is coming together, again.

Well, guys. I think it's happening. My life is coming into place...after everything that went wrong. I won't tell you all how (as to not jinx it) but I am going to meet someone. You all know what that means...a date. Anyway, another thing is, my stories are really popular on FanFiction.net. Today alone I must have gotten about 25 reviews in my mail. I am not kidding, I just checked it. So, That's all good. And most of my friends don't hate me I think, and we all seem to be doing the same thing: Re-inventing ourselves. You know the usual: losing wieght, changing hair, wardrobe, the whole works. So, for me that's going good. I don't know what it is, that has changed, but I hope it doesn't go away. The only bad thing about my life right now, is I still have moments during the day when I'll do or say something, and then it'll trigger a memory about alex and me. Then those thoughts turn to ones about how dumb and hurt I was. Oh well, I can't live in the past now can I? Talk to you all later.

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Wake up and smell the coffee, cause it's here, it's hot, and it's black.

-Jack, Will &Grace.

It's all good

I'm back home. I am writing, and feeling good. This summer as I may have said before, is all about changing myself. So, Anyway, I will write more later, but for now, I have to stick to my loyal fanfic readers. Love you all, and laur I was going to get a "greatest journal" but didn't feel like it at the moment. love ya *kisses*

I'm Getting the Piss Annoyed out of me.

Like the title says, I'm getting the piss annoyed out of me once again, by none other than tom. You don't spend twenty-four seven, two weeks in a row, with him and not have this happen to you. Like I said, I am the new me now, and this isn't going to fly. Fuck that shit. I'm about to ask him if he thinks he's better than me. If he says yes, then I'm going to tell him that I don't waste my time with people who think they're better than me, and that's when I'll cut the ties. I don't want to, but sometimes, I just fuckin get tired of all his shit. So there we have it folks. Anyway onto less depressing factors of my life. I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!! I haven't spent enough time with them since school let out. I am sorry for that. So, when I get back home, I can properly begin my diet and excercise regime. This is going to be great. This summer, I will completely transform. I am going to love it. So see you all my sophomore year. :D Well it's like three in the morning, so I am heading off to bed. Alright? love yas. night

*kisses*